Geez thanks for the reminder...

Yesterday someone said to me "oh you're gonna have a birthday"...yup geez thanks...I'm gonna be *gulp* 31 ... and i thought 30 was hard ...
Anyway it got me to thinking, why is it that this bothers me so much? It shouldn't, 30 or 31 for that matter certainly isn't "OLD". I guess it bothers me cause birthdays just aren't really anything to celebrate anymore, they are just another day that means you are another year older.
I never did have great birthdays anyway, i always thought of myself as some kind of birthday jinx. I'd have great plans to do something fun, or something great and then for one reason or another they'd get ruined.
Although I do remember one birthday that was pretty special, actually it was the birthday "eve" that was special. I was feeling particularly blue, i was turning 22 the next day and was single and just feeling like my life wasn't where i wanted it to be. I was supposed to be meeting this guy i was seeing on/off at a local bar, he played in a band (what a cliche huh). Anyway I got all dressed up, stopped at the place I was currently working to chat with a friend and went ahead to the bar. While i was there (at my workplace) this guy came in (someone i knew but not well) and thought i looked great and asked someone where i was going. He went home, got dressed up himself and showed up at the bar i was at.
Well my date never did show up that night, nothing like getting stood up on the night before your birthday and by a guy in a "band" no less. Anyway this other guy sat down next to me at the bar, pretending it was a total coincidence he was there, chatted with this other guy sitting there. Offered to buy me a drink, which i of course declined. So we finally started chatting, i told him i was supposed to be meeting someone etc. We talked for a long time and once it was painfully obvious that i was stood up, he suggested going for a coffee....
Well anyway that guy was John, my husband. And that's the night we started dating. And since we stayed out all night, technically I did get something really special that year for my birthday. That was 9 years ago come Feb 17/18. I knew that night he was the man i was going to marry, it took him a lot longer to figure that out. We got engaged around Valentine's day 2 years later (2001), got married in Aug. 2002 and of course added little Faith to our clan in July 2006.